fighting will

I went out
I did not have fun
I drank
More than I should have

I watched you
I pretended not to notice
I laughed and smiled
At what I do not know

I tried to have fun
I just did not know how

Wont you just take my hand
Show me how
give me the excitement we used to share

I set my eyes on someone else
I watched him
I pretended to not have a light just so he would be closer
I gave up smoking but that did not matter,

He was gorgeous his smile was so alive
his hair was dark and his eyes were bright
his mannerisms where unique and his confidence high

But still over my shoulder to you I looked,
But still I saw you in the corridor with someone else
but still I saw you dance with someone you don't care for

Why could I not, my feet were frozen to the ground
I pretended not to notice, not to care, I brushed you aside when you tried to talk

I told you I did not want your card
yet I did

I pretended to not care your birthday is almost here
I pretend that I would not want to be with you

Just take my hand and make it right

Just become the person you were meant to be
not this bullshitter you pretend to be ...

Tofay

Today I sit here in my shop selling the last of the few cigarettes on my shelf
I am closing the doors
ending a chapter

I move on in a few weeks time
I become another statistic
but its ok

I never liked it anyway
I hated the monotony
its like a leech sucking away all your time

But soon , soon it will be over and I can move on ...

All that I can say is
All that I can pretend to be is
All that I want to believe in is

But somehow I am down here, still waiting
trying to believe it will be, or is my mind just playing tricks on me

I wait,
I wonder,
I try,
I wish,
and all I still hope for is

Someone just pick up my pieces,
don't stick them back together just yet.

Tell me I am fine
Tell me its ok
Tell me to pick myself up from the ground

But from the ground I can not fall
I am waiting, wondering, anticipating
leave me here please let me wait.

Evidently it pays

I cant give up, not yet, not today
I cant get it out my mind, here it stays
I cant stop secretly, hoping

Please tell me its lost, tell me over and I have been used, tell me please just say it.

Its you...

Anna Nalick

"Wreck Of The Day"

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces

And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

what a woman needs !!

Due to a good friend of mine tagging me saying that she would like to see what a ' wannabe Mather Stewart would keep in her hand bag' I am doing this post on what I think are the essentials for a womans hand bag, (well its what I have in my bag but unfortunately I lost the cable for my cell camera and my big sister borrowing my other camera so will add pic's later)

1) Keys
a) House Keys
b) Shop Keys
c) Car Keys

2) McNab's Energy Tabs for tiredness stress and anxiety

3) Wallet filled with cards ID and Drivers actual cash is limited to the little packet of coins kept for car guards

4) Tampons (all girls need them)

5) Lip ice

6) Lipstick 2 shades a dark and a light for emergency touch ups

7) Body Cream - Marula collection the little one they give you in hotel rooms when you check in I save them for my hand bag due to size convenience

8) Peppermints from coffee shops you never know when they will come in handy

9) Eye liner black

10) flash stick

11) little bottle of promotional perfume (clinique free gift happy) again convenient little size

12) eye cream for puffy eyes

13) Ciggaretts

14) Lighter

15) Cellphone

16) pocket pack of tissues

17) various business cards

18) till slips from pick n pay woolies clicks and foshini

thats it guys thats what I have in my bag !

WHY KARMA WHY

I have been sent away on business flew out today and fly home tomorrow,

Being a firm believer of Karma I dont understand what I have done to deserve being subjected to SCREAMING BABIES

I being a very fragile flyer' do not enjoy moving during a flight I sit in my seat and close my eyes and pretend I am sleeping but that was not to happen on this flight as I was seated next to a mother with her 2 screaming toddlers.
They screamed threw toys had snotty noses and generally shoved bumped and shilled every 2 seconds, they insisted on looking for toys thrown at other passengers under the small aircraft seat, now being seated on the isl I got pushed and shoved and asked to move every few minutes! what was the mother doing you may ask? giving in to their every whim and appologising and saying they normally quiet well behaved! BULLSHIT those kids had never heard the word NO! sit down and shut up!!!

Now after this stressful plane experience which made me realize I dont want kids any time soon, I check in to this peaceful B&B
start to relax and unwind which was the point of coming a day before my big meeting and as I settle down for a relaxed afternoon nap I hear a Baby screaming and I think no no no please why now!!! The screaming has not stopped since 2 this afternoon all I wanted was a few days to relax enjoy my day off and relax before my big meeting!

So obviously I have done something serious to Karma as she is punishing me severely!!

ALL I WANT IS SOME QUIET IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK?

Distractions out the window

OK well so much for the distraction!!!

It was short lived and pointless so back to my original scenario, something has got to distract me from this soon or I will go crazy !!!

Well I fly off to Cape Town on Monday Big meeting (I am Jet setter... lol)

Short Hi and Good Bye not much happening

I have a few new eye candy's yummmmmmm

Distractions and desires ...

Distractions and desires...

I have had an interesting weekend,
Friday night was spent at the local pub VT with mate droops.
Droops has feelings for me, and I just don't feel the same way about him, and I have explained this to him, that we could never be anything more than friends! I think he is starting to accept that but he still slips up every now and then when he gets to pissed which he does way to often!!
I feel terrible about this but all I can do is stay his friend and remind him we will only ever be friends.
I know he must be hurting when he sees me flirting with other guys, and I feel horrible for this!! I think maybe letting him see the obvious will help him realize nothing will ever happen.

Anyway Friday night the fun evening it was ends to late and I wake up on Saturday Morning to early!
My mouth feeling like I have been sucking a dry sock all night (The joys of a hangover)and I need a shower and to go to work!

After a very long Saturday at work I get home light a smoke climb on the sleeper couch put on Treasure Island, soon after my mind starts fighting a loosing battle with my eyes, eventually my eyes win and I pass out on the couch, I must have slept for an hour or so before I get a sms... its Droops he wants me to join him for Rugby with his family at Douglas Mitchel Sports Ground.
I haul my ass off the sleeper couch and change, Rugby was cool and drinks flowed again, his family mistook me for his new girlfriend but I was to tired to argue and felt sorry for the guy so left them to misunderstand!
I Met some Crazy Friends of his who almost all had pregnant girlfriends whom where half my age (Sex crazed breeding maniacs)anyway we went to VT again after the Rugby and who do I find there my mate Jubs at a hens party.

She drags me off to dance, and on our way to the dance floor we meet Alan (refer to previous post) Jubs being the kinda girl whom when drunk can do anything and fight with anyone, poor Alan was in the war path (ok play war and they were just horsing around)But she breaks his watch and feels terrible about it! and they end up messing around as they know each other through someone or other.
I have been watching Alan for a few days now (Wed night, Friday Night and now Saturday night) watching him interact with my mate was cool, I want to find out what kind of guy he is, who he hangs out with and what his personality is like, I don't know if I am interested in him because I am not allowed to be, or if its his personality? but I will find out because he does intrigue me!

Now as long as my mind is on Alan and I get to put all my Stalker 101 into practice on him (LOL NO REALLY I AM BORDER LINE STALKER)
it takes my mind away from Gavin and this is something I have really needed! I have been with more than a few guys since Gavin and I broke up, but none have intrigued me as much as Alan!!
I find when I am around him my mind does not wonder and think about Gavin as much as it does normally.
Ok I know some of you might be irritated with the whole Gavin scenario I am too, this has been going on too long and I have been too hurt by him to allow this any further, but its not that easy to just get over someone who you were picturing spending the rest of your life with someone who just pop's into your mind when your watching a movie or series if you hear a song on the radio (yeah that bad)everything I do seems to have a connection to this guy!!

Anyway since meeting Alan I am so distracted and Intrigued that I find myself forgetting about Gavin (now even if its just a distraction nobody but him has the right to take it away, I have been hung up over Gavin for the last 6 months and having someone that is capable of distracting me this much is fantastic its something I have not been able to do for 6 months and even if its just friends its great because I get to forget about Gavin and for that I am great full and nobody should want to take that away from me!!

Anyway I ended up meeting him at the VT last night (yes a Sunday I know but I was drinking water I was still suffering from Friday and Saturday night I could barely keep track of the conversation!), anyway they started a joke over this poor guy who had lost his legs, I think it started with Ryan saying "Hey that guys legless" and his girlfriend said "hey thats below the belt"
anyway this continued for 2 or more hours lol and YES I feel awful as I always try to be nice to everyone and the poor guy could not even stand up for himself!! well I got to see a little of Alan's personality and he is very funny, I like that but I was as quiet as a church mouse last night I was hanging and starving and very distracted but if they hang around they will soon find out who I am!

And I am excited to find out who he is! lets see what happens maybe there is a friendship in the making!

Confessions from a Lover .....

Lately my love life has been turned inside out and upside down,

It all started when I was away in the berg,
My Ex Gavin decided to call me, he wanted to come over to see me,
why I still have no clue but I think he had been drinking, regardless I was not at home I was in the berg (busy trying to make a fire in the fire place which was just about to come right until we all got so distracted by the call)
anyway so I tell him unless he wanted to make a 5 hour drive I would not be seeing him, so he proceeds to get a drop lip about it,
(I would have seen him if I was home not my fault he could not wait a day or so to see me)

Anyway the story goes that he decided to bullshit me into thinking he was drinking with my ex, the one that will kill me if he ever finds me again.
So I get upset tell him he is lying and that its not him and hang up the phone, my two girlfriends sheen and kim where listening in on the whole conversation and decide enough is enough and they phone him to tell him to LEAVE ME ALONE anyway he lies about the whole conversation little did he know he was on speaker phone, but regardless of the lies he scared me so badly telling me that my ex who wants to kill me is on the coast and has found me through him, I was so scared of just the thought that he might have found me that I was shaking uncontrollably!

Anyway when I get home I find out that some ppl I know through a friend want to fight him, now I thought a friend might have done this on my behalf anyway I am not happy for him to get hurt so I try ask them to leave him alone, only to get told its not my problem and to stop interfering there is nothing I can do to stop this.
Lucky for Gavin they don't know what he looks like and unless someone points him out he will be ok... even though what he did to me was sick and twisted, with him knowing about my ex and what he did to me, I still would not like to see him hurt.
But now even though he was an asshole to me I cant talk to him or explain that its not me causing him to get hurt, and there is nothing I can do to stop it and for some sick and twisted reason on my side I cant help wanting to run and tell him that I tried to help but I cant and if I could stop it I would, and that even though he is an asshole and I know he treats me badly he is my asshole and until I am happy with out him in my life I will be unhappy without him.

Then to pick myself up I go out with my mates and meet a very sweet bar man Laurence he flirts with me buys me a drink and we exchange numbers, he seemed very nice and in my excitement I point him out the next time I go out to some of my mates they think he looks alright, a little later one of my house mates friends comes and ask's me to get her a drink from the bar so I say no problem I will ask Laurence so she giggles and said "Oh you know Laurence too" so I said yep he is a friend leaving it at that so I ask how she knows him and she said he sort of has a thing with her friend Angela now imagine my disappointment so I take a deep breath order the drink and go find Angela to find out what is going on, I show her the sms he has been sending me and find out that he kissed her after I left the previous weekend. so I back away and apologies and tell her I think he is an idiot for two timing us but have no problem if she is interested in him.

The next friday I go out with my friend droopy and this guy Alan is introduced to me as he had stolen my chair when I went to the ladies so we laugh and joke and I know some of his friends from school days and it turns out he was at school with me too, he seems very nice fun and full of life, a little later House Mate arrives and so does his mates Angela and the whole crew and to my surprise Angela comes over and gives him a hug, I say hello to her and when she goes off to see other people I ask Alan how he knows her and he told me he knows her through her older sister, so I think nothing of it, we flirt and laugh and I get to really like him, later on Angela's friend comes past and asked if I was with him and at the time I was not so I said no why she replied with another question is the other girl over their with him so I confidently say no because he is flirting with me, she said ok and walked away now I could see something was up so followed her to the bathroom, and tried to find out, I tell Angela he is flirting with me and I am interested she said go for him please she really has no problem so I think ok cool (still thinking he is just a mate of her sisters) (and I am pretty tanked by now) so anyway we hook up and every one of House mates friends jump down my throat and tell me that I am so wrong how could I do that, now being very confused I go to Angela and ask what is going on? I cant believe this has happened twice in a week with the same girl!!! she said no its fine go with him if I like him, damage already done just go 4 him,
I was very upset that none of her mates had enough respect to come and tell me who this guy really was and that she was really hoping to hook up with him that night. How was I supposed to know? yes as House mate said I should have picked up on the name Alan but I honestly dont listen to what his mates are saying at 3am in the morning when I am making waffles?
Anyway I said I had , had enough of the evening and was going to proceed to go home, and they all say NO DONT it will make Angela look bad so I stay entertain the guy and go home much later than I would have!
The next morning I forget what happened and plan to not contact the guy again!

So things are not so easy having a House mate that is upset with you stealing his friends guys twice in the space of a week!
anyway things with him sort themselves out,

Now I go out again last night to catch up a bit with my mate droopy and who would be there Alan and Laurence, Alan wants to know why I am upset with him, so I tell him about what I heard his Facebook status was and he denies it was about me but about some shit on Saturday night, anyway I explain that besides him being a nice guy my life is to complicated for anything other than friendship, He agrees to be friends and we leave that where it is, Laurence comes over and chats and apologizes for two timing me I accept his apology and agree to be friends with him too.
I am not sure but I think him and Angela are together now and I am glad, he does seem like a nice guy, he must just be honest with her, well I hope they do make it and that her living in Durban does not put too much strain on the relationship long distance is hard but she is a really sweet girl and I know she would not mess it up!

So thats my love life flat squished and non existent, I will just keep partying with my mate droops!

Black Swans and Bats

I have just got home from the most amazing holiday,

No really despite the title we had an amazing time, we were booked into this stunning chalet with its own private dam and black swans, we had all meals catered for in the restaurant and drinks in the Bar. (Besides the night Shanon decided to cook the most amazing chicken breasts with rosemary and fresh cream yummmmm)

Now the whole reason why I had to go up to the Drakensberg was to testify in criminal court case I was not really testifying for anyone but just recalling certain events that took place at the hotel I used to work for.

Luckily I got to take 2 of my closest friends with me, Kim and Sheen and Kim's friend Shanon joined us for Monday night.

The first evening in the restaurant was a little hair raising as out of nowhere this huge bat started to fly around the restaurant as Sheen saw it she lost all her lady like etiquette screamed swore dropped her knife and fork and ran to the nearest "EXIT" and lit up a smoke. (I think the old couple at the table next to us thought we were uncultured hooligans as I am sure their eye sight was not good enough to see the bat and so our behavior was uncalled for as they kept scowling at us and tisk tisk ing us when they looked our way!!)

We also spent a fabulous morning watching all the birds of prey at Falcon Ridge, we climbed to the view point at the hotel, and we even tried to start our own fire in the fire place at the chalet.

All in all a wonderful getaway something I was really in need of, to clear my head and rethink what I want out of my life.

Now the Drive there and back was enough stress to cause the requirement of a Holiday !!! Yes I admit to being the worlds worst back seat driver but my dear and beloved friend Sheen CANT DRIVE I thought I was going to DIE (Sheen I love you but SLOW DOWN AND TAKE TIME) cutting in between trucks and going 160kmph in a 120kmph zone riding up other cars bums and hitting the brakes at the very last second!! Enjoy the ride get to the destination!
(I still love you)

anyway thats all for now I am back home back at work and enjoying my life again!

Coconuts

A few nights ago I ran into a mate of mine that I have not seen for a long time,
He left school and I have always wondered where he was and what he was up too,
and out of the blue I ran into him at my friends Hen Party,

We hit it off immediately catching up on old stories and and finding out what everyone is doing now days (its amazing how many of my friends are getting married and having babies SCARY)

We made plans for the Tavern for Wednesday night (being last night)and started drinking I think a little too early, by 10pm I was ready to try out pole dancing again and was in a rather fun mood,
Somehow in our discussions we mentioned that I make a really kick ass pina colada and just thinking about that made me want one so badly,

All I needed was coconut milk but where to find coconut milk at this hour? and then I knew on the beach front in Margate there are tall palm trees that have coconuts hanging off them just waiting to get picked,

I had made up my mind and rounded up the crew of mates to come with me to the beach,

we get to the beach found a tree that was not to tall and start to climb, well I got onto my house mates shoulders and managed to reach one and pull it down, (did I mention I was wearing a skirt?)

Some how during this escapade I managed to hit my knee on something and
bruise my arm ...?

After this effort to get the coconut we realize there is no pineapple juice and our efforts were useless, so we keep the coconut and promise to make fresh pina coladas tonight.

However it was not all disappointing everyone came back to our place around 2am for chocolate chip waffles and ice cream yummmmmmm yes once again I was making waffles like Mary friggen Poppen's maybe they should nickname me Mary Poppen's
"a spooooon fullll of sugar helps the medicine go dowwwwn the medicine go dowwwwn la da dee dee dum'

as I am not very fond of Martha Stewart well I am going to court next week for a fraud case.....?

Oh and before I forget I will be away for the next few days due to the above mentioned court case ....,

Shit Issues

This is a very sensitive subject for me ...

I don't know about you but I hate shitting near someone that I now who might possibly smell my shit, its just not cool and I know everyones shit stinks, but I cant handle knowing other people have smelt my shit (specially people I know!)


Tiffany says: you know you said your stomach was sore?
Tiffany says: well when last did you have a kak? maybe your constipated
BadGuy..! says: it still is.. do you have it 2
BadGuy..! says: um gud question.. haha um last night.. i crap daily house mate
Tiffany says: no
Tiffany says: I am fine
Tiffany says: nice to know you crap cycle .... :|
Tiffany says: lol well go check it out
BadGuy..! says: haha i no you must be backed up cos i been home alot l8ly hey
Tiffany says: hahahaha I go at work
BadGuy..! says: miff public toilets
BadGuy..! says: do you put your bum down?
Tiffany says: not the public loo but pick n pay has a very clean paraplegic toilet that nobody uses
Tiffany says: NO if I have to use a public loo I either squat or layer the seat with paper before I sit
BadGuy..! says: no body uses but the whole of pick n pay staff which is like how many ppl .. 500
BadGuy..! says: (puke)
Tiffany says: no they use the outside one its only for customers but no customers know because they advertise the outside loos that you have to pay R1.00 for
Tiffany says: trust me this one is empty and kept clean
BadGuy..! says: (puke)(puke)(puke)(puke) o and some more (puke) (puke)
Tiffany says: its right by the account office in pick and pay ppl don't know its there unless your disabled
Tiffany says: and I still cover the seat or squat
BadGuy..! says: cudi bum
BadGuy..! says: haha
Tiffany says: what must I do I would rather they smell my shit and not you
Tiffany says: I am just funny that way I really hate ppl to smell me go
BadGuy..! says: hey every body got smelly shit.. who cares
Tiffany says: I do its one thing I have issues with
BadGuy..! says: oo she been eating stew
Tiffany says: I dont have many issues but that is one
Tiffany says: and I am a vegi so my shit dont stink to bad
Tiffany says: its meat that makes your shit stink
BadGuy says:
BadGuy..! says: poo i poo
Tiffany says: yeah we should put that on our bathroom door
Tiffany says: no bull shit!
BadGuy says:
Tiffany says: LMAO

Sleep Deprived

This was such an awesome weekend, besides the waffles on Friday night tee hee hee...
Saturday I went to a Braai and had such an awesome evening it was something that I needed!

to just relax not worry and have your car keys removed so you cant drive home (gives you no excuse to stay sober)

I must say it was a great evening we had pizza and played a board game called pig out, it got me horribly drunk and I ended up with someones boxers on my head !

Now after Friday night and the waffle scene I had only gone to bed around 4am on Sat morning and got up for work at 7am for work, then after sat night I went to sleep Sunday morning between 3 or 4 and got up at 6am OMG was I tired went to work again then ended up relaxing on the beach for the afternoon and swimming in a good friends pool was fantastic ! After the relaxed afternoon we had a braai and had a relaxed peaceful evening got home around 10pm ish and from there went straight to sleep!

I Love weekends we should have them more often!!

Waffles ...

around 3.30am this morning...

Rob - "giggle giggle" "SLAM CAR DOOR" whisper "do you think she is awake... pissst "
House Mate - "Her light is off maybe she is asleep"
Rob - "Dibbs not waking her"
House Mate - "snigger giggle I got you here you have to wake her..."
Me in my head - "What the fuck is wrong with these ppl its 3am?"
House Mate - "SLAM front door giggle" footsteps approach my room....
Me in my head - " quick put clothes on before he decides to jump on my bed" Dash to the cupboard and throw on some jammies open my door to find House mate about to enter ...
House Mate "YOUR AWAKE !!!" WE WANT WAFFLES"
Me - Your fucked in the head if you think I am making waffles at 3.30am in the morning you chop
Rob - "Aw please tiff tiff we have been craving waffles all night"
Rob - "Friend do you have some water for my drunk friend she is about to pass out"
Me - Look to floor where drunk girl is about to pass out...
House Mate - "ok friend do you want tea?"
Rob ' "Yes please"
Me - "Yeas please"
Me - Start making waffles
House Mate - takes ice cream out the freezer
House Mate - stirs egg into flour
Me - "What the fuck you doing leave it alone you chop you making lumps!'
Me - "Rob beat the egg white for me please and House Mate light me a smoke"
Me - Put on the waffle maker "there House mate here is your batter now you make the waffles"
House Mate - throws so much batter onto the waffle machine it starts ooozing out the sides
Me - "You chop give it back to me" obviously drunk people cant do shit"
Me - "You fucked up the first one not me ..."
House Mate - "My BAD...'
Rob - Drunk friend passing out... WAKE UP WAFFLES NEARLY DONE YOU CANT PASS OUT ON US NOW!"

you can see where this is going ....
me hungover and groggy and not too impressed so I left the kitchen in a mess for house mate to clean not a fuck was I washing dishes at that hour!


I can see this happening again as I do make a kick ass waffle and drunken munchies occur regularly in our house !

The Average Person

People are blind honestly or they are plain doff

I mean when there is no power do they expect the ATM machine to still work and spit out money?
I see on average 50 people per day, during load shedding when they know the power is out trying to draw money from the ATM.

I have people that have walked past my shop every week for a month and only now, that I have placed an advert in the paper do they try find me and say "oh how long have you been open?"

I have people walk into my shop and ask for a 2litre coke "now I am a nut store and have not one fridge in my shop kinda obvious I don't sell cooldrinks ! (then he asked where he could get some? so I said " I am not sure sir but I always thought pick 'n pay stocked coke in 2 litres and they right next door to me" I mean hello its pick 'n pay center for crying out loud)

And whats with the woman that came to complain I am out of stock on nartjie jam (I have never sold nartjie jam stupid cow)

I seem to be the local information spot for vaalies, looking for toilets, checkers, biltong shops (YES I SELL BILTONG FUCKERS) airtime, tyre fitments, activities, someone even phoned me looking for taxi services WTF????

I have seen people not even 1 meter from the trolley ramp try push there trolley off the curb so its closer to their car, resulting in one woman loosing 3 taxi pack's of eggs, another one hit the car parked next to the curb and had all her groceries flung into the parking lot, do they think the trolley ramp was put there to look pretty?

I have seen people with little kids allow them to squat and pee in the parking lot when there is a free toilet in pick 'n pay (come on thats disgusting imagine if everyone allowed there kids to do that the place would stink !

A man once reversed into the trolley train being pushed back to the entrance of the store he was so infuriated that the car guard had not told him to stop (when the car guard was clearly showing a do not move sign) and bedside's car guards are not there to assist in your driving skills you supposed to have a license for that!

I am sorry but is it just me or can people be really STUPID!

Nosy Neighbors

As per my previous post I had been summoned to a meeting with my neighbor, now I had been preparing to explain that we had permission to climb over the wall and swim in the other neighbors pool and that we would be careful not to destroy any of her plants in the process of climbing over the wall, but to my surprise the neighbor was not concerned about her plants or that we were breaking and entering into someone else's property, but had not seen me climbing the wall at all, only the gentleman with a red shirt.

She was truly concerned that the man I am living with was having an affair, and that she had been truly concerned for me she said "I was thinking all day should I tell her or maybe I should leave it" "but I had to tell you men are bastards and your man has been climbing the wall at night while you are asleep" " I can show you the muddy foot prints on the garden chair he used to climb over the wall, and the place in the garden where he put it" " I am very sorry to be telling you this "
Now I had been sitting very quietly trying my best to not let out a giggle...
so Istarted to explain that a me and House Mate are good friends and have not got a romantic relationship of any kind! second that it was me climbing the wall to swim in our neighbors pool as they are friends and we have permission to use it but were to lazy to drive or walk around.

"OH MY I AM SO PLEASED TO HEAR THAT!" "I have a real soft spot for women when it comes to men hurting there hearts" she said "and I am so glad its not what I thought, I was expecting the worst" So I thanked her for her good intentions and sat giggling for half an hour after she left

So house mate if you ever cheat on me the neighbor will come tell me! She probably heard you in the garage with another girl on my birthday and this just confirmed her suspicions you cheating bastard snigger how could you!!!! right under my nose...

in the pooh again ....

Lately we have been experiencing very hot humid weather , that combined with all the power cuts (due to eskom's new scam to give criminals longer trading hours) resulted in me climbing over the wall in very skimpy pajamas to go skinny dipping in the pool nest door ( I know the owner of the house and his tenants just moved out so the house was empty)

I had a very fun filled evening doing all kinds of things a girl like me should not be doing, but what the hell I always behave it was time to let my hair down and go wild! at about 12pm last night we eventually climbed back over to our side and got dry as it was starting to get very cold.

Now the problem where I live is that I share a subdivided house with 2 sets of people, one side is rather private but the other side practically lives on our doorstep!
Now after my fun filled evening climbing over the wall I get an sms asking me to have a private talk with my neighbor when I get home today, I can only think it has something to do with last nights escapade so I will have to sit down and find out what it is that I have done wrong again it seems like whatever I do now days is wrong ....

DDIY - DONT DO IT YOURSELF!

For those of you that dont know me I love getting all practical and doing guy stuff like changing light bulbs and hanging pictures.

A few weeks ago I decided to tackle a bigger task I needed glass shelving in my new shop window and I figured that I could get the job done...

So I went to the hardware store bought brackets and ordered glass to be cut in the shelf size, and I found this wonderful product called NO NAILS GLUE perfect so I spent an afternoon measuring and leveling these brackets to make the shelves were straight and glued the brackets into place .

The next day when I was sure the glue was dry I put the glass on and left it on for another day just to make sure it would hold! when it did I started placing display items on not too many but to see if it would hold , eventually I had everything I wanted on the shelves Olive oil, Jams , Honey, Greek Olives, Pickles, Nuts, Biscuits and a Beautiful Rooster that crow's when you clap your hands!

This morning I get to work to find my floor marinating in olive oil honey jam the olives were flung from one end of the shop to the other and my poor rooster lying violated on the floor and covered in jam glass and pickles! The clean up took hours not to mention there is glass everywhere luckily nobody was in the shop when it fell or I would be forking out hospital bills as it was not just little shards of glass on the floor but huge mother fuckers that were flung as far back as my store room!


So the conclusion is FUCK DIY with capitals I shall be taking down the mirror I hung so proudly in my house last weekend before that falls and decapitates some poor defenseless house guest or worse on of my precious kitty's and I will from now on contact a professional for any work of this nature that needs to be done! I am obviously not ment to do this stuff!

Lifes little hiccups

Ok so a lot of ppl are wondering what happens now....
Zuma is close to becoming president (as much as I detest the idea we have to face the facts that most of the voting citizens of this country are voting for a president that has been convicted, well almost, for fraud and corruption rape and untold misbehavior's) He is already the president of the ANC the ruling party in the Limpopo province,

This is the same man who chants the song in zulu "let us take out our guns and shoot the white people" his sayings of "just shower properly after sex and you will not get aids" does he want to kill the population of this country?

I always said when Zuma becomes president I will leave this country but how ?
I own three companies here and I will have to give up everything to start working and saving in another country throw everything I have worked so hard to get away because of one man?

Lately my parents have been fighting so much that they want to destroy there business just to spite each other , that effects me too as my businesses are connected to theres , if they go under so do I .

I have been looking at moving to another country getting a job and just continuing life as a working person but who will look after my parents who will help them out when things go bad ? I can not leave them?

This is a stunning country and I love its every province but things are becoming scary here ...
Just the other day a well known South Coast lady was murdered in her home come restaurant she was not just murdered but butchered and then burnt and her body left outside to say the least!

I lie in bed here and wonder when my turn will come when my fate will reveal itself will it be quick and painless or the same as Mrs Cosson brutal and unmerciful. Is this the way to live is this the person I have to be wondering when will be my last and trying to enjoy every day and telling the people that I love that they mean the world to me because I might not have the same opportunity tomorrow?

Who gives me the right to leave this country while so many can not? who decides that I qualify and you dont? The whole situation is a mess and I get stressed out every day! between wondering when and how I am going to die and what will happen to my parents one day? as they dont have medical aid? and they can not leave the country and between them fighting every day over who gets what out the divorce, I actually can not continue with this I cant sleep at night and most of the time I feel the world is caving in on me and I cant breath or move or talk I freeze and want to dissolve into a world where nothing is real nothing matters anymore!

I wonder what will happen to my friends and other family will they be ok will they survive through the life this country is providing? or will they abandon ship and swim to safety?

All because being white is not the flavor of the month anymore, being white means we should not have the same opportunities that that other colored races should have yes the elder white generation messed it up they disadvantaged the playing field for colored people but that does not mean to disadvantage us now ? Grow up people give everyone equal opportunities let the person with the best application get the job let the person with the determination to succeed in there career go forward let honest and trustworthy people become the role model leaders of this country!

Let people respect there elders and stop looking at them as easy targets, let babies and animals be protected and respected as defenseless and innocent,

let the death penalty come back and reduce the numbers of rapists and murderers in our jail cells, let people sleep at night without having to stress that they might get murdered in there bed!

I am just so angry with the citizens of this country for not opening there eyes to corruption and lies if Zuma lied and stole once who is to say he is not conning you now do you want our beloved country to become the same as zimbabwe? can you not see the signs the similarities of what happened there? all I can say is dont be a sheep and follow the heard make up your mind and fight for what is good and right fight for the life you want to live fight to be an individual who is respected and considered to be a valuable member of society!

My Friends

I don't have many friends but the ones I do mean a lot to me...
in the last 6 months I have lost three friends and I am close to loosing a fourth...
My long lost drinking buddy N has gone to the UK to make fame and fortune, my party girl C came and then returned to continue her adventures in the UK and now Jen my dear friend has left for Korea to teach, a brave move with a million opportunities and unopened doors to experience, and Sheebee is next on the list leaving for Cape Town on the 10th and from then only she knows, she is off to experience the ships the world and find everything she has not been able to find here...

I wish them all the very best, they all mean something different yet special to me in there own unique way, and I will always have them in my heart no matter how far away they travel.

One small problem now with all my girlfriends leaving this leaves me with a bunch of male friends, now dont get me wrong I love them all too even though they drive me nuts! They can do most things friends are supposed to but they suck at girl problems love life and decisions you girls will give you a different point of view on!

For example I am not over my ex
sheebee: I know it hurts but in time you will learn to love again and trust men they can be assholes and hurt you but you are much better without him...
House Mate: Get leg over that fixes everything

What is with guys thinking sex solves everything?

My latest problem well it's not a problem but a decision is , I have been seeing this guy a few times nothing serious but I can see things getting interesting if we play our cards right, I know him from way back when and lost touch with him for around 8 or so years, now getting to know each other again I find out he is in the middle of a divorce and has a kid thats 10 months old, now for me this shouts hold on move away because of my last ex who was married with kids.

Now if I really think about it I loved his kids and the ex wife never bugged me we broke up on a different note, he fought with me when he got drunk and that was everyday!

My friends are already warning me against this but should I listen to then and give up something that was possibly great or do I wait and play it out and see who he really is? get all the facts before I decide?

I like him a lot he is a decent guy with standards, I think I should play it slow and wait and see?