Distractions and desires ...

Distractions and desires...

I have had an interesting weekend,
Friday night was spent at the local pub VT with mate droops.
Droops has feelings for me, and I just don't feel the same way about him, and I have explained this to him, that we could never be anything more than friends! I think he is starting to accept that but he still slips up every now and then when he gets to pissed which he does way to often!!
I feel terrible about this but all I can do is stay his friend and remind him we will only ever be friends.
I know he must be hurting when he sees me flirting with other guys, and I feel horrible for this!! I think maybe letting him see the obvious will help him realize nothing will ever happen.

Anyway Friday night the fun evening it was ends to late and I wake up on Saturday Morning to early!
My mouth feeling like I have been sucking a dry sock all night (The joys of a hangover)and I need a shower and to go to work!

After a very long Saturday at work I get home light a smoke climb on the sleeper couch put on Treasure Island, soon after my mind starts fighting a loosing battle with my eyes, eventually my eyes win and I pass out on the couch, I must have slept for an hour or so before I get a sms... its Droops he wants me to join him for Rugby with his family at Douglas Mitchel Sports Ground.
I haul my ass off the sleeper couch and change, Rugby was cool and drinks flowed again, his family mistook me for his new girlfriend but I was to tired to argue and felt sorry for the guy so left them to misunderstand!
I Met some Crazy Friends of his who almost all had pregnant girlfriends whom where half my age (Sex crazed breeding maniacs)anyway we went to VT again after the Rugby and who do I find there my mate Jubs at a hens party.

She drags me off to dance, and on our way to the dance floor we meet Alan (refer to previous post) Jubs being the kinda girl whom when drunk can do anything and fight with anyone, poor Alan was in the war path (ok play war and they were just horsing around)But she breaks his watch and feels terrible about it! and they end up messing around as they know each other through someone or other.
I have been watching Alan for a few days now (Wed night, Friday Night and now Saturday night) watching him interact with my mate was cool, I want to find out what kind of guy he is, who he hangs out with and what his personality is like, I don't know if I am interested in him because I am not allowed to be, or if its his personality? but I will find out because he does intrigue me!

Now as long as my mind is on Alan and I get to put all my Stalker 101 into practice on him (LOL NO REALLY I AM BORDER LINE STALKER)
it takes my mind away from Gavin and this is something I have really needed! I have been with more than a few guys since Gavin and I broke up, but none have intrigued me as much as Alan!!
I find when I am around him my mind does not wonder and think about Gavin as much as it does normally.
Ok I know some of you might be irritated with the whole Gavin scenario I am too, this has been going on too long and I have been too hurt by him to allow this any further, but its not that easy to just get over someone who you were picturing spending the rest of your life with someone who just pop's into your mind when your watching a movie or series if you hear a song on the radio (yeah that bad)everything I do seems to have a connection to this guy!!

Anyway since meeting Alan I am so distracted and Intrigued that I find myself forgetting about Gavin (now even if its just a distraction nobody but him has the right to take it away, I have been hung up over Gavin for the last 6 months and having someone that is capable of distracting me this much is fantastic its something I have not been able to do for 6 months and even if its just friends its great because I get to forget about Gavin and for that I am great full and nobody should want to take that away from me!!

Anyway I ended up meeting him at the VT last night (yes a Sunday I know but I was drinking water I was still suffering from Friday and Saturday night I could barely keep track of the conversation!), anyway they started a joke over this poor guy who had lost his legs, I think it started with Ryan saying "Hey that guys legless" and his girlfriend said "hey thats below the belt"
anyway this continued for 2 or more hours lol and YES I feel awful as I always try to be nice to everyone and the poor guy could not even stand up for himself!! well I got to see a little of Alan's personality and he is very funny, I like that but I was as quiet as a church mouse last night I was hanging and starving and very distracted but if they hang around they will soon find out who I am!

And I am excited to find out who he is! lets see what happens maybe there is a friendship in the making!