Confessions from a Lover .....

Lately my love life has been turned inside out and upside down,

It all started when I was away in the berg,
My Ex Gavin decided to call me, he wanted to come over to see me,
why I still have no clue but I think he had been drinking, regardless I was not at home I was in the berg (busy trying to make a fire in the fire place which was just about to come right until we all got so distracted by the call)
anyway so I tell him unless he wanted to make a 5 hour drive I would not be seeing him, so he proceeds to get a drop lip about it,
(I would have seen him if I was home not my fault he could not wait a day or so to see me)

Anyway the story goes that he decided to bullshit me into thinking he was drinking with my ex, the one that will kill me if he ever finds me again.
So I get upset tell him he is lying and that its not him and hang up the phone, my two girlfriends sheen and kim where listening in on the whole conversation and decide enough is enough and they phone him to tell him to LEAVE ME ALONE anyway he lies about the whole conversation little did he know he was on speaker phone, but regardless of the lies he scared me so badly telling me that my ex who wants to kill me is on the coast and has found me through him, I was so scared of just the thought that he might have found me that I was shaking uncontrollably!

Anyway when I get home I find out that some ppl I know through a friend want to fight him, now I thought a friend might have done this on my behalf anyway I am not happy for him to get hurt so I try ask them to leave him alone, only to get told its not my problem and to stop interfering there is nothing I can do to stop this.
Lucky for Gavin they don't know what he looks like and unless someone points him out he will be ok... even though what he did to me was sick and twisted, with him knowing about my ex and what he did to me, I still would not like to see him hurt.
But now even though he was an asshole to me I cant talk to him or explain that its not me causing him to get hurt, and there is nothing I can do to stop it and for some sick and twisted reason on my side I cant help wanting to run and tell him that I tried to help but I cant and if I could stop it I would, and that even though he is an asshole and I know he treats me badly he is my asshole and until I am happy with out him in my life I will be unhappy without him.

Then to pick myself up I go out with my mates and meet a very sweet bar man Laurence he flirts with me buys me a drink and we exchange numbers, he seemed very nice and in my excitement I point him out the next time I go out to some of my mates they think he looks alright, a little later one of my house mates friends comes and ask's me to get her a drink from the bar so I say no problem I will ask Laurence so she giggles and said "Oh you know Laurence too" so I said yep he is a friend leaving it at that so I ask how she knows him and she said he sort of has a thing with her friend Angela now imagine my disappointment so I take a deep breath order the drink and go find Angela to find out what is going on, I show her the sms he has been sending me and find out that he kissed her after I left the previous weekend. so I back away and apologies and tell her I think he is an idiot for two timing us but have no problem if she is interested in him.

The next friday I go out with my friend droopy and this guy Alan is introduced to me as he had stolen my chair when I went to the ladies so we laugh and joke and I know some of his friends from school days and it turns out he was at school with me too, he seems very nice fun and full of life, a little later House Mate arrives and so does his mates Angela and the whole crew and to my surprise Angela comes over and gives him a hug, I say hello to her and when she goes off to see other people I ask Alan how he knows her and he told me he knows her through her older sister, so I think nothing of it, we flirt and laugh and I get to really like him, later on Angela's friend comes past and asked if I was with him and at the time I was not so I said no why she replied with another question is the other girl over their with him so I confidently say no because he is flirting with me, she said ok and walked away now I could see something was up so followed her to the bathroom, and tried to find out, I tell Angela he is flirting with me and I am interested she said go for him please she really has no problem so I think ok cool (still thinking he is just a mate of her sisters) (and I am pretty tanked by now) so anyway we hook up and every one of House mates friends jump down my throat and tell me that I am so wrong how could I do that, now being very confused I go to Angela and ask what is going on? I cant believe this has happened twice in a week with the same girl!!! she said no its fine go with him if I like him, damage already done just go 4 him,
I was very upset that none of her mates had enough respect to come and tell me who this guy really was and that she was really hoping to hook up with him that night. How was I supposed to know? yes as House mate said I should have picked up on the name Alan but I honestly dont listen to what his mates are saying at 3am in the morning when I am making waffles?
Anyway I said I had , had enough of the evening and was going to proceed to go home, and they all say NO DONT it will make Angela look bad so I stay entertain the guy and go home much later than I would have!
The next morning I forget what happened and plan to not contact the guy again!

So things are not so easy having a House mate that is upset with you stealing his friends guys twice in the space of a week!
anyway things with him sort themselves out,

Now I go out again last night to catch up a bit with my mate droopy and who would be there Alan and Laurence, Alan wants to know why I am upset with him, so I tell him about what I heard his Facebook status was and he denies it was about me but about some shit on Saturday night, anyway I explain that besides him being a nice guy my life is to complicated for anything other than friendship, He agrees to be friends and we leave that where it is, Laurence comes over and chats and apologizes for two timing me I accept his apology and agree to be friends with him too.
I am not sure but I think him and Angela are together now and I am glad, he does seem like a nice guy, he must just be honest with her, well I hope they do make it and that her living in Durban does not put too much strain on the relationship long distance is hard but she is a really sweet girl and I know she would not mess it up!

So thats my love life flat squished and non existent, I will just keep partying with my mate droops!