fighting will

I went out
I did not have fun
I drank
More than I should have

I watched you
I pretended not to notice
I laughed and smiled
At what I do not know

I tried to have fun
I just did not know how

Wont you just take my hand
Show me how
give me the excitement we used to share

I set my eyes on someone else
I watched him
I pretended to not have a light just so he would be closer
I gave up smoking but that did not matter,

He was gorgeous his smile was so alive
his hair was dark and his eyes were bright
his mannerisms where unique and his confidence high

But still over my shoulder to you I looked,
But still I saw you in the corridor with someone else
but still I saw you dance with someone you don't care for

Why could I not, my feet were frozen to the ground
I pretended not to notice, not to care, I brushed you aside when you tried to talk

I told you I did not want your card
yet I did

I pretended to not care your birthday is almost here
I pretend that I would not want to be with you

Just take my hand and make it right

Just become the person you were meant to be
not this bullshitter you pretend to be ...

Tofay

Today I sit here in my shop selling the last of the few cigarettes on my shelf
I am closing the doors
ending a chapter

I move on in a few weeks time
I become another statistic
but its ok

I never liked it anyway
I hated the monotony
its like a leech sucking away all your time

But soon , soon it will be over and I can move on ...

All that I can say is
All that I can pretend to be is
All that I want to believe in is

But somehow I am down here, still waiting
trying to believe it will be, or is my mind just playing tricks on me

I wait,
I wonder,
I try,
I wish,
and all I still hope for is

Someone just pick up my pieces,
don't stick them back together just yet.

Tell me I am fine
Tell me its ok
Tell me to pick myself up from the ground

But from the ground I can not fall
I am waiting, wondering, anticipating
leave me here please let me wait.

Evidently it pays

I cant give up, not yet, not today
I cant get it out my mind, here it stays
I cant stop secretly, hoping

Please tell me its lost, tell me over and I have been used, tell me please just say it.

Its you...

Anna Nalick

"Wreck Of The Day"

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces

And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love